Every year I have the best of intentions when it comes to keeping a New Year's resolution. Some years I don't even set one in anticipation of failing. But this year, in all my realistic glory, I set a resolution I figured I could actually keep—2014 was the year I committed to doing things I'm bad at, big or small.
Let me set the stage.
I started avoiding certain things sometime between scoring for the opposing team in basketball and hyperventilating after a mountain bike I tripped over fell on me. At least I think that's where this avoidance started...if there's one thing I've learned in life, it's to blame middle school for all one's insecurities.
I realized lately this insecurity of failing publicly was turning me into someone I didn't want to be. Hence the resolution I actually kept.
Here's what 2014 taught me—
1 - My friends don't care how greatly I fail.
My sweet friend took me skiing for the first time in 8 years. Before we even hit the chair lift, I slid down backwards, almost ran into a kid and couldn't stop telling her how sweaty my hands were in my gloves...Another friend played me left handed in racquetball (she's right handed) and still beat me, a lot...Multiple times my roommates had to jump in to save a meal I was massacring on the stove. But, it turns out my friends are still my friends and not only did they not care when I royally failed, they celebrated even the tiniest of victories with me.
2 - Everyone sucks at something.
We all have things we find intimidating—it's okay if your things look different than others.
3 - I can have hard conversations without wanting to throw up.
For a while there my stomach had a bad habit of revolting any time I had to address an uncomfortable situation. But, this year I've learned that I can have genuine, hard conversations where I stand up for myself, speak truth and give grace all while keeping my lunch down.
4 - People don't care what I look like at the gym.
Well okay, they might care (because some gyms in Menver are masquerading as speed dating cafes), but even if they are looking, a week from now they're not going to remember that I was only able to lift 5lb weights or had no clue how to use that one machine with all the fancy gadgets.
5 - Don't forget the good in the midst of the bad.
It can become overwhelmingly easy to focus on the things I'm terrible at or the ways I don't measure up. But, God blesses people with passions and gifts for a reason—to be used and celebrated. I'm thankful I have friends around me who graciously point out that truth.
6 - Everything, big or small, can be adventure.
One of my favorite quotes from 2014 sums this up well—"Attitude is the difference between an ordeal and an adventure." I have no clue what my resolution will be this year, but I know that 2015 is going to be filled with adventures—because I'm going to make it so.
Cheers to a new year friends—may you learn to relish in the things you're bad at and hold fast to all the good.