I think one of the things that makes the early twenties so scary (there are tons of reasons, let's just tackle one at a time here) is that everyone's life is changing at different speeds. I'm no longer on the same track as my peers: in education, in sports, in life.
The most dangerous part of this realization is that it causes me to compare my life with all those around me to the point where I question what I'm doing ... but more than that, I question if what I'm doing is ordinary.
There it is.
The curse word of my generation.
Sends shivers right?
Know how people say to picture yourself at your own funeral and ponder what you want the person giving the eulogy to say (why do people recommend this stuff)? Well, what if the person stands up there, speaking to a room of 5 people and says that I lived a big, fat ordinary life? Okay okay, so no one would probably say that, but what if they were thinking it?
I have struggled and wrestled with this idea of being ordinary for a long time (and I still do). But, the more I try to pin down what this terrifying ordinary life would look like, the more it eludes me. Because the thing is, ordinary is defined differently for every person. So, my comparison to the perfect life another has painted for themselves, will never satisfy me. Their contentment in the extraordinary is not mine.
I'm not saying we should strive to lead an ordinary life. The first thing I'm saying is the lives we lead will be far more extraordinary if we loose our imaginary definition on a subjective word.
The second thing is, we frequently mistake extraordinary for ordinary. Mother Teresa had it right when she said, "We cannot do great things on this Earth, only small things with great love." If I'm seeking to follow what the Lord has set out for me, if I'm living for Him to the best of my ability and loving people in the same way, then no matter what I'm doing (from accounting to joining a circus to traveling the world), it's extraordinary. Even when it doesn't feel extraordinary.
With Him, where we're still messy and broken and life is not nearly as glamorous as one might expect, it's there we'll find the extraordinary life we've been longing for.
Some quotes to leave you with:
"Rediscovering the gospel enabled me to see that: because Jesus was strong for me, I was free to be weak; because Jesus won for me, I was free to lose; because Jesus was someone, I was free to be no one; because Jesus was extraordinary, I was free to be ordinary; because Jesus succeeded for me, I was free to fail." -Tullian Tchividjian
"God does everything through people who understand they're nothing. And God does nothing through those who think they're everything."-Tullian Tchividjian
"You made us for yourself, and our hearts are restless until they rest in you." -Augustine