Living in the Gray

The "Gray Area."

That terrible place that people refer to when they don't know whether they're in a relationship or not.

Thankfully, that's not the gray area I'm referring to.  Less thankfully, the gray area I'm referring to is my life.

I tend to look back on my life as a series of colors....well not colors I suppose, but more shades of light (is that weird?).  When I look back on times that I really enjoyed, everything seems light. Times in my life that were hard are tinted get the idea.

It's easy to love those light moments, and at least you know life is clearly black in those dark moments.

But, the grey area is tricky.  It's that place where you don't love where you are, but you don't know where you're going.  Where you don't know how to change the present moment even though you want to.  Where you have a lot to be thankful for, and yet you long for more.

So, how do you live here?  How do I live here?

Honestly, I'm not entirely sure.

But, here's what I've come up with.

  -Trust that God has a plan, and that He is faithful. (1 Peter 4:19) Which leads me to...

  -Patience (I don't love learning this, but it seems to be the theme of my year).

  -Find those small things every day to be thankful for. (today I'm thankful for this awesome Christmas videoearl grey tea, blankets, my roomie Rachael who "studies" with me and the fact that I don't have to leave the house today (ahh 9 degrees!))

 -Remind myself that life is made up of seasons, and seasons come and go, as this one soon will. I might as well learn from it for as long as I can. 

"Expect to have hope rekindled. Expect your prayers to be answered in wondrous ways. The dry seasons in life do not last. The spring rains will come again." -Sarah Ban Breathnach

PS- Ironic that you can spell gray with either an "a" or an "e"